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Regret
Its raining heavily outside. And its really cold inside. The sound and the smell of the rains completely cant stop me from crying. Macam paham paham jak dengan emotion aku time tok. And yes, I cried. I cried all night long and wet my pillow. Thinking about myself, and Him too. How idiot I am towards Him. I put on my earphone and turned on my music player of my cellphone. Automatically, a sad song played. So I cried and cried some more. I guess I better get up and have my Subuh's prayer before things became worse. Break up or break off. Yeahh, this thing always surrounded my life since past few months ago. I heard so many break up stories lately. Even my bestfriend, my officemate, my ex-roomate and a few of my Uni friends, they were breaking up with their loved ones. As a friend, I just have a pair of ear to be a gorgeous listener, and i also have a pair of hand to cuddle them. Being supportive, giving 'em some advises which i also don't know where's on this earth I've got all those words to cheer them up. From that moments, I always trying to put myself in their shoes imagining how's my life could be if I ever experience the same fate and misfortune with them. I might died, I guess. The text that I received from Him, telling me about the break up things really surprised me. I'm shocked and startled. All my organs were shacking continuously. I know I've made mistakes by throwing you stupid words that night. Being so harsh and mean to you. And now you're upset and disappointed sampei sanggup cakap benda benda yang aku paling takut happens to both of us. Its not easy to maintain our 9-years of relationship actually. We've grown up together, seeing each others ups and downs. We've tried so many ways and solutions in every problems that happened to us. You've sacrificed a lots in our relationship and faced thousands challenges of having me as your girlfriend. Ohhhhhh dear, I am so sorry. Really really truly sorry. At some point, I feel that you didn't deserve me at all. You're so kind and penyabar and langsung sik layak hidup dengan kamek nok sik bagus tok. Ya Allah, he really deserves some better than me. You gave me a second chance, or maybe a last chance. Do I really deserve it? After this, did everything will be the same again and back to normal? Are you going to treat me as before? Did I still become a part of your life? Did you still be the one who will catch me everytime I fall? And most important thing is, Did you still love me??? I have so much questions to ask you. But sadly, I have no guts at all to call or text you. Maybe, both of us need some time to think over and cool down. Take how much time you want. I won't go anywhere. I can wait. If you read this ASMG, I am sorry. I regret. I won't dare to do that anymore. If you're not for me, If we are not destined together, Believe me with all your heart, its all my faults. Punish me, because I deserve it. I am hurting myself by hurting you. And I regret. Labels: boyfriend, heart's say, hell, love |
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